As some of the very few people that read this blog may know, last Sunday I attended the last day of the Heineken Open'er Festival. Even though I came back home on a Monday afternoon, the state of exhaustion that I was in kept me from updating this blog for a good few days. It would probably keep me away from it now as well, but since I'm feeling a little bit under the weather, I decided it would be better to remind myself of the great memories from that night than just go back to bed, close my eyes and daydream while listening to City and Colour. But, as I think about it, the ending part of my super-long sentence sounds more attractive...whatever. I'll just get my stuff together and keep on writing. Yeah.

So, let's start from the very beginning. I woke up at 5:25 am, in a suprisingly good mood concerning the super-early hour. Enthusiastingly, I took a quick shower, dressed, dryed my hair, woke up my mum who was going to drive me and Alice to the train station, and packed while eating a sandwich. With a 5 minute delay, we left at 6:30. Soon after getting into our car, my mum realised she's not sure where my friend lives. With the power of texting, Al directed us straight into her neighbourhood, where she's been waiting. She got into the car and we drove away to the train station.
That's when our problems started. Right when we arrived to the station, Alice realised she...left her Open'er ticket at home! With our train ready to leave, my mum lent her the ammount of money she needed for a new one and we got on the train, hoping it would be possible to buy a new one in Gdynia. We also contacted our friend Dorian, who has been attending the festival for all four days. He, being a great friend as he is, got on a bus to the centre of Gdynia and bought the ticket so that Al would be sure that she can in fact attend the whole thing.
We thought that thing would end our trouble with getting there, but actually, it was just the beginning. Around 10:30 the train suddenly...stopped. It turned out that something was wrong with it and we had to wait for some guys to come and fix it O_O. At that moment we were like "Alright...but it won't take long, right? It can't take that long.", but in fact, it did. It took FIVE HOURS. People were getting crazy, some even started drinking. Which led to even more complications.
After all that time sitting in a middle of nowhere, the train started going again. Soon after one of the very drunk passenger started running around the train, shouting and disturbing people. People couldn't get him to stop and we ended up taking another one hour stop, waiting for the police to come and take him. At this point we were about to give up the festival, get out at the nearest station and catch a train home...but thankfully, we didn't.
Even though we were supposed to arrive in Gdynia around 1pm, we arrived at 7:30 pm. Our moods weren't the best at this point, but they got better as we saw our friend Dorian, who came to the station to get us ^_^. After getting on a bus for 30 minutes we arrived to the airport where the festival was taking place. I just gotta say that I don't think I've ever seen so many people in one place, ahahah. From what I've read on the official website, there were about 60 THOUSAND attendants. I'm not even kidding :3.


So, by the time we exchanged our tickets for passes (as in blue wristbands), left our backpacks in Dorian's tent and walked all the way to the main stage, it was around 8 pm and Lily Allen just started preforming. To be honest...we were pretty dissapointed by her. It seemed like she had no contact with the crowd and didn't even care about us. She kept on mentioning Kings Of Leon and how she really wants to see their show. And she smoked a cigarette on stage, which seemed odd to me. I don't know, the way she sung her songs was okay, I guess, but we expected something more. The only song that really caught our attention was "Fuck You" but that's more because of the crowd's reaction - everyone started waving their middle fingers in the air. Imagine such a huge crowd doing that...hahah. Nice view.
Anyway, after Lily's show, Kings Of Leon were meant to come on and as me and Dorian desperately wanted to be in front row (Alice said she'd be saving up energy for her favorite band - Placebo - and she stayed, laying down on the grass and watching KoL on the big screens ^ ^), we ran into the crowd. At first we were pretty much at the front, but on the right site on the stage, but as KoL came on stage, we got separated by the crowd. I don't know where he ended up at, but I got to the second row in the middle of the stage! It was so amazing. Kings Of Leon were. They played for about 1,5 h, which is a lot longer that they were supposed to - it seemed like they were really suprised by the way the crowd welcomed them - Caleb said he thought no one would know who they were, but the crowd was so huge! He also said that it's been one of the best shows of the tour and that they'll come back whenever we want them to. At some point he even joked that they don't feel like leaving and that they'll be playing here tomorrow for the whole day! I wouldn't mind. They're really amazing live and even though I wasn't really obsessed with their music before (I just liked it, I guess), now I definitely am.
When Caleb announced they were going to play the last song, I decided to get away from the crowd and look for Alice, so that we could get in the front together again by the time Placebo was about to come. And so we tried to, but we ended up basically in the middle of the crowd. When the band came on, people literally got crazy and I thought we were about to die! Even though we were surrounded by some huge guys, by the time Placebo started playing the second song, we decided to just..go with the flow basically. I haven't listened to the new album yet and I'm not exactly a die-hard fan of them, but by the time they played "Every You and Every Me" (my favorite song by them!) & "Special K" I felt it couldn't get better. But then they played "Meds" and the whole crowd screaming "Babyyyyyyy, did you forget to take your medsssssssss" felt mind-blowing. I loved the fact that majority of the songs they played were older, so that I could enjoy some of my favorite tracks by them. Oh, and also - I couldn't stop staring at their new drummer - Stevie Forest - WHOA! That guy is just incredible. Overall, it was such a great show, probably just as good as the Kings Of Leon one.

By the time they got down from the stage, after the last encore, we decided to look for Dorian. It was already about 1:30 am and since our train was leaving at 5, we wanted to have our backpacks with us in case we'd get separated again. But as you can imagine, in a crowd of 60 thousand people, it's not the easiest thing to find a 17 year guy in a black t-shirt and glasses. Not to mention both of our cellphones' batteries died. So, we waited for him at the entrance to the campsite (it was so cold!) and around a hour later, we met. It turned out that he's been looking for us to and even went to load his phone a bit, so he could call us (he thought our cellphones were working XD). Anyway, we didn't have much energy to stay and catch the end of The Prodigy show, so we just went for the bus to the train station.

And you know what? Even THAT wasn't the end of our trouble. It turned out that the train tickets we bought in Warsaw were for a train that...didn't exist. I have no idea how that happenned, but we had to buy new tickets. I wonder what would've happenned if we didn't have any money left...total disaster. But, we managed to catch a train at 6 am. Except it was full and we had to sit on its floor for 6,5 hours. Yeah.

So basically, that's how it ended. You'd think that with all these problems I'd regret going there...but in fact, even if I knew that it'd happen, I'd go anyway. Just because Kings Of Leon and Placebo made up for it. I wonder who's going to play there next year! 'Cause I'm definitely going. And I'm not taking my armband off, no way ^_^.


Oh wow, that's probably been the LONGEST post in the history of this blog...it took me a lot of time too, maybe 'cause I feel myself getting more and more sick with each minute, I even lost my voice today for around 20 minutes...scary stuff. So I'm sorry for any grammar/spelling/whatever mistakes I might've made - I know the whole thing is pretty chaotic. I am going to add pictures to the post tomorrow, right now I'm just too tired/sleepy/sick to do it. G'night!

ps: how do you like the new layout? ^_^



So...is it time for an update? Haven't done one in so long, I'll make a list out of it for better organisation, I guess.

• Schoolyear's over! It has been for some time now. I passed everything, then, a day later, visited my grandma in Knurów, Silesia for about a week. After one of the most boring weeks of my life (seriously!), I came back to Warsaw and started enjoying my super lazy summer.
• The weather in Warsaw got all hot and summery just two days ago & I'm really glad that it did, 'cause I couldn't stand the constant rain and wind and coldness.
  
• A. asked me to go to the last day of Open'er Festival with her, which is on Sunday. We're going to see Placebo, Kings of Leon, Lily Allen and possibly The Ting Tings. I can't waittttt!
• I have been fighting with my sister for the whole day till she had to leave for her trip to Greece. Basically, we're still mad at each other and she's gone for two weeks. Yay. I really need that break from being around her.
• A few days ago I attended Rachel's 18th b'day party. At first it was awkward, as she was the only person I knew there, but it got better after some time. I guess vodka helped. She introduced me to it, I don't know if it was such a great idea...I ended up chatting with some of her friends, but after that got boring, I started playing with her 3 month old kitten in the garden. At 3 am. Even under the influence of alcohol, he seemed more appealing than all these guys there. Which is pretty confusing, but I'll get into it some other time.
• Coming back home from the party was even more amusing. I was supposed to sleep over at Rachel's house, but me & some other guests decided we were going to take the first bus in the morning to go home. Except, at the bus stop, it turned out that NO ONE was going my way. I ended up getting on a bus, then a tramway and then subway all alone at 4:30. Scary experience! Then I got home at 5:30, found out everyone was asleep while the door were locked from the inside. And my phone's battery was dead. And so I had to bang on my own door for about an hour. Ahahah. Still a fun night though!
  
• Everytime I see a new update on Tegan and Sara's website, or a new Tweet from Tegan, I get more and more excited about the new record. I've heard they're going to announce its title this week! Ahhhhhh.
• I'm going to work on the layout of this blog SOON, I promise. Isn't it sad that even though I spend SO much time in Photoshop, I can't find time to design a layout for my own blog? I keep on making creepy photo-manipulations. That's what I've been really into lately.
• Tomorrow I'll be meeting up with my friend/crush [Is it still that? FYI, I'm trying to get over that part after the slash and just leave the one before the slash. Haha.] and buy our train tickets to Gdynia. Yeah, she's the one that I'm going to the festival with. Whoaaah. That's the part that makes me even more excited about going there. Even if that means that we'll have to return home by a night train, which will be really scary and probably dangerous. Hopefully we're gonna survive! ^_^
  

I guess that would be it. :3



The last week has been pretty strange. Stressful, that's for sure, but it also helped me see things that I never really noticed before. Good things. I don't feel like getting into details now about the stressful situations I've had, they're not actually solved out yet, but I have to say that it's probably been the first time in my life that I felt someone truly cares about me. The way that she defended me, stood by my side and cheered me up was just incredible. While I really needed this, I couldn't help the thoughts that I didn't even expect this from her. And I'm talking about my friend/crush that I wrote about a few posts earlier. I don't know what I would've done if she wasn't there for me during the past few days. While I still don't expect her wanting to be anything more than friends with me, I don't mind. If it's going to stay the way it is now, then she'll be the best friend in the universe and I hope that I can be one like that for her too. Ahhh.





1. What is your nationality? Polish.
2. Do you believe in angels? I like the idea, but I don't believe they exist.
3. Can you cook? Some basic stuff, yeah. I can make some great sushi!
4. What part of your body is the most attractive? I really like my hands for some reason.
5. Name 1 thing you regret.. why? Not asking her to go with me.
6. Do you sing in the shower? Sometimes. I usually take baths though.
7. What is your sign? Aries.
8. What is your favorite t.v. show? At the moment, The L Word.
9. Are you affraid of the dark? Not really. I am afraid of mirrors in the dark though. Can't explain it.
10. Do you believe everyone has a soulmate? No, I don't think so. But I would love to have one.
11. What time do u go to bed? I'm a nightowl. It's usually around 1-2 am.
12. If you had one wish what would it be? To become an electric and acoustic guitar master in one day? Can't think of anything else atm.
13. What's the last thing you do before you go to bed? Turn off the light.
14. Do you think your psychic? Nahh.
15. Name one person that makes you smile. Miki.
16. What is your favorite clothing store? H&M?
17. Who's the last person who called you? why? Um, my mum. I called her, she didn't pick up and called me back.
18. Love or lust? Both, please.
19. What's the last thing you purchased? Lemonade. It was awful.
20. Do you like candles? Sure.
21. How many computer's do you own? There are three in my house.
22. What's your favorite room in the house? The one I share with my sister, I guess...but I don't like it that much.
23. Satin sheets or flannel? I have flannel.
24. Do you save or spend? A bit of both, I guess.
25. Are you picture happy? Depends on the time.
26. What's your favorite number? why? Seven. It's even in my nickname - Nana - it means 'seven' in Japanese. I don't know why. It's just stuck with me. I also love 11.
27. Are you happy with your name? No, not at all!
28. Have you ever called someone the wrong name? Oh wow, yes.
29. What's the first thing you do when you wake up? Hug my pillow and go back to sleep for a few minutes.
30. What does your screen name mean? Slumber Doll? Nothing really. I love to sleep in the times that I'm not supposed to. Falling into slumber.




My birth was like: Common Reaction (by Uh Huh Her)
To cheer myself up I: Bulid The Moon (by Charlotte Sometimes)
My friends see me as: Twisted Logic (by Coldplay)
Will I ever have kids? Want to Be Bad (by Tegan and Sara)
When I'm in the shower, I sing: Where I Stood (by Missy Higgins)
When I'm drunk I say: Now At Last (by Feist)
My last words will be: I Woke Up In A Car (by Something Corporate)
My ultimate song for dancing is: Black-Eyed (by Placebo)
At my wedding they'll play: Last Thing On Your Mind (by Lights)
My parents are like the song: Air and Kilometers (by Kaki King)
My best friend is like: 20 Years Of Snow (by Regina Spektor)
How will you die? Everyday I Love You Less and Less (by Kaiser Chiefs)
My family is described by the song: Waiting For The Monster To Drown (by Get Cape. Wear Cape. Fly.)
My alter-ego is: Zephyrus (by Bloc Party)
My make-out song is: Who Let You Go? (by The Killers)
This song will be playing when I meet the love of my life: Slit Your Own Throat (by The Used)
Happiness is: In My Head (by No Doubt)
My innermost desire is: Rachael (by She Wants Revenge)
My favorite thing to do is: Endlessly (by Muse)
What I did did last night was: First Orgasm (by The Dresden Dolls) LOL!
Somewhere in my wedding vows, I will include: Dreams (by High and Mighty Color)
My day will be like: Don't Confess (by Tegan and Sara)
Highschool was like: Underwater (by Tegan and Sara)
This song describes my grandparents: Two Planets (by Bat For Lashes)
The story of my life is: That Time (by Regina Spektor)

I can't believe how hilarious are some of these! Hahah.



Alright, so it's been a really tough day and I feel like doing something really stupid right now. So I think I'm gonna fill out a few surveys and stuff like that here. Just for the hell of it :3.
[oh, and even though I doubt you are, if you're reading this, feel free to steal them and repost!]

• List 10 celebrities you find really attractive.

• Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.

• Supply a photo...

Some time ago I fell in love with her and her sister's music and I became a huge huge fan of her not only as a musician but also as a person. At first I've been thinking about including them in one post, 'cause they're twins and all...but I realised that even though their look is pretty similar, they're obviously two different people and even though I find both of them super attractive, it's for remotely different reasons. Anyway. Tegan is gorgeous. Her songs are the ones that you can easily relate to and fall in love with at the first listen. I love her voice and guitar/keyboard/glockenspiel(! XD) skills and I think she's very talented. Add that to the hilarious stories she tells on stage and you'll get perfection.










Here, there's Sara as an individual point in the survey. I think she's stunning (face bone structure! <3). Her voice, songwriting and guitar/keyboard playing skills are insane. I also love that you have to really take some time before you learn to really "get" and love her songs. Her lyrics are usually really intense too. The other amazing thing about her is that she's SO hilarious during the stage banter and interviews, same as her sister.











I have no idea why, but I've always found him and his voice insanely sexy. And he's a great actor, especially in "Requiem For A Dream". This movie moved me A LOT. I also love his band, 30 Seconds to Mars, they're great.



















Shane from The L Word. How can someone not find her attractive at all? Seems impossible. I don't know what it is about her, but sometimes she looks like the sexiest woman on the planet without even trying. And she also it seems like she has a really cool personality to go with it. :3

She's incredibly cute and I love her as Alice in TLW, probably my favorite character on the show. Incredibly funny and witty. Also, her band, Uh Huh Her is all kinds of awesome. And did I mention she's just gorgeous?

















Coldplay, one of my all-time favorite bands. He's really talented & I love his accent. Really handsome too. And he gets some extra points for reminding me of a younger Hugh Laurie. Or is it just me?





















7. Missy Higgins
I just discovered her music recently and I love her voice. She has the cutest smile ever, an adorable accent (especially in "The River"!) and her piano skills are great. And she's really, really cute.



















8. Freja Beha Erichsen

Saw some pictures of her on the net and thought she was stunning. The bone structure on her face is breathtaking *o*. And I love the way she looks with shorter hair.

















9. Johnny Depp

It's a pretty similar one to the one with Kate, who doesn't find him attractive? He's the best actor in the world too. I loved him as Jack Sparrow, as Sweeney Todd, as Willy Wonka...basically, I loved him in every movie I've seen him in. He's a legend to me.

















10. Kim Stolz

A contestant in ANTM's cycle five turned MTV news correspondent. She's changed her look a LOT in the past few years, but I still think she's gorgeous. And I stole this picture from her Twitter, haha. & according to it, it's her b'day today. Aw :3.















Andddd this is it. I ran out of space, could have included many more. Oh well :3.



Okay, some updates.

• I got my haircut. It's pretty short, layered and I think it looks good. I might modify it a bit more soon, making it shorter on one side and possibly in the back too. I think I'm gonna wait and get used to it some more first.
  
• There's no fucking progress as for that liking someone stuff. Uhh. Whatever.
• I've been having really weird dreams lately. Like, the whole school picketing outside my house, or running into R. in my bathroom. What the hell?! Creepy.
  
• I'm REALLY excited about the new Tegan and Sara record. And I love all the updates they give on their site everyday. All these pictures are so gorgeous! I want to stick 'em all on my bedroom's wall. Which I did with two of them, added to my wall collage. I should work on that collage btw, it's still so small!
• I passed history and chemistry and am still waiting for the results on physics and biology. Nervousssssssss.
  
• I need to save up for a new iPod Classic. Mine crashed. It was old, but I loved it and I can't fit everything I want onto my iPhone, which is only 8gb. My iPod was 80gb! Compare.
• I'm addicted to Rachael Cantu's "Thieves and Their Hands". It hasn't been released yet, but this guy on .ca cut out her performance with it on "This Just Out" and made a mp3 for me. Yay <3.
• I'm craving a Bounty bar. *o*