This evening has taught me one thing - sometimes letting others know about your thoughts isn't the best idea. Sometimes you should just keep them in your mind, even though they're screaming to be written down/spoken out. Lock your floorplan somewhere no one can see it.
A few days ago, me and one of my best friends started talking to each other again. He's always been one of the few people that I thought understood me pretty well and always managed to make me laugh. Some time ago I lost that feeling in our conversations and soon after we got into a fight which resulted in a pretty long silence between us. But a few days ago the silence broke and I thought that everything was going well again...until today. We were talking about some random stuff that was happening in our lives. But it felt like talking to some...I don't know, robot? Definitely not the same person I used to be so close to. I didn't say anything about it, 'cause the last thing I wanted was another fight with him, so I sent a twitter update saying... "It's sad how he's not able to understand me anymore...we used to be so alike when it came to sense of humour and all..now it's just awkward." . And the next thing I know is him writing, in this robotic manner similar to our whole convo, something like 'I hope that you do well in life. Goodbye'.
At this point I was just psyched out/pissed at myself/....wait, I had no idea what to feel like. I don't know if I offended him because I wrote it on Twitter and not to him, or because I couldn't accept the fact that he's changed...I don't know what to think anymore. I just know that I should have kept my hands off my keyboard and should have locked my thoughts inside my mind. Maybe floorplans aren't the best things to do at times? I always thought that expressing myself is one of the most important things in life... I don't know if it's worth it. Mixed feelings. Did I just lose him forever, was he captured by some aliens or is he going to come back to being himself again? If he does come back, but still in his robotic way, will I be able to accept him?