A few days ago, my father came back from his one month long holidays in Norway. For this one month, he took away our laptop, our Nikon and our car plus spent a shitload of money just on himself and his friends, not thinking about four other people in his family, sitting at home and saving up on everything they can. Anyway, he's back now and the relations between us are just horrible. I don't know if it's just his awful personality, or if he's just getting more and more idiotic with age (I know, it sounds bad when I'm saying this about my own father...but I can't help thinking that way while watching the stuff he does...)...I'm not sure. Add obsessive alcohol drinking to that and you'll get a complete disaster. Ever since he came home, there hasn't been a day without a fight between us. And I can't hold back the thoughts that I'm going to be legal here in just a year. I know that I won't move out before I finish high school (It's at 19 here.), but what after I do finish it? It's so hard to live in my house nowadays and it's not only because of him, but also of the fact that I have to share a room with my younger sister whos personality is basically an opposite of mine. We have been sharing this room for our whole lives, but we've both changed a lot through the past year or two and it's getting tougher each day.
But the point of this is that I don't really know what I'm going to do after high school. No perspective at all. I know that I want to study, preferably in a different, preferably english-speaking, country. And that I want to move out of this house (which would automatically happen while going to study in a different country...but if that doesn't work out, I don't want to stay here anyway). The thing is that I don't even know what I would want to study. Or how that would work out, how much money would it cost to study in some other country, how can I get there? My mind's a mess when I start thinking about my future. I want to prepare for a new chapter in my life and I want it to be better than this, disastrous one. What should I do?